About My Testimony

I just wish to give glory to the Lord because when He came to me, in 2001, I was a very scarred, unhappy and desperate person. 8 years earlier, I had been attacked, beaten and raped, and nearly murdered and it almost destroyed my life. I became suicidal. I turned to drugs to cope with the shame and pain of what I'd been through and got hooked. I had been using drugs for a while, but after this, I grew more heavily dependent on them. I chain smoked-a 17 year habit that only grew worse over the years, as my poor choices in life led to misery, heartache, hurt, and nearly the loss of my life. God took a drug addict, who was hard, bitter, filled with a poisonous hate, bound with fear that is hard to describe, unless you have been a victim of a violent crime, and changed me from the inside out. I'd lived like this for 8 years. I worried about everything, constantly. I was a very fearful person who had forgotten how to raise her head and look people in the eye, so great was my shame. But when the Lord Jesus Christ saved me, He freed me in one fell swoop from the drug addiction (and desire for drugs) and delivered me from the hate and fear and shame that was destroying me from the inside out. Now I can pray, with concern for the person who hurt me, and a real desire to see them saved, and at peace with the Lord and themselves. The Lord did something for me that no one else could do. I had tried therapy, anti depressants, psychologists, nothing helped. Nothing brought relief. But just a few minutes on my knees under the convicting power of the Holy Ghost, worked a miracle. I was saved Feb. 25, 2001. I only got high twice after that, the first week after I prayed. It wasn't the same, and I repented, was forgiven, saw I didn't need or want it anymore, and have been clean ever since. He delivered me from cigarettes. First he gave me a desire to lay down the 17 year old habit. Then he gave me something I wanted more. Himself. He was my motivation to quit. I want nothing to separate me from Him. There truly is no greater high than being in the presence of the Lord. It's been 7 years. I have had battles and trials but I have no desire to turn back. No one could ever convince me God is not real. He literally saved my life, and has filled it with His wonderful love. Because of Him, I have a new life, a wonderful family, and the precious Holy Spirit to live this new life in me and teach me the things of God. I am so blessed and so thankful. He took a desperate woman and gave me a bright, shining hope. My desire is to live totally for Him so others can see His light and truth and find deliverance and peace with the Lord, too.