June 6, 2006
I've been thinking about this word a lot lately. What does it really mean to worship? Do I really worship the Lord as I'm
supposed to? In spirit and in truth? What does that mean? I have experienced it many times, though not as many or as often
as I should. But what causes it? What is the meaning of worship?
Honor which should only be offered to God, and is sinful to give to another. To reverence, adore, and hunger for God? I
believe it is. To offer him respect, honor, to love him, not for what he does but who he is. I love the way Noah Webster's
1828 dictionary puts it:" To honor with extravagant love and extreme submission; as a lover." Wow. That's pretty close to
the definition of worship, I think. The only real source of truth is where I want to go for answers on this and oh, precious
Holy Ghost open thou mine eyes that I may see the truth so I may obey the truth...
First, and I was in these same scriptures yesterday, but let's go back to the conversation Moses had with God when he asked
the Lord to show him his glory in Exo_33:18;
think about what is being said here. I thank God for having this conversation written down for us to examine-which is what
I think we are supposed to do. He's standing in the tabernacle in Exo_33:9-11 it says. They are talking, face to face, but of course, all Moses can see is a cloudy pillar, with a shape of
the Lord in it; a silhouette, you might say. He is in his presence, talking. He hears God say that he has found grace in his
eyes, that his presence will go up with the people, but Moses isn't satisfied, he wants more. He tells God, you told me to
bring this people up, you said you knew my name, and that I've found grace in your sight. Have you ever talked to God this
way? I haven't ever had a conversation like this. But I'm hungry to have it. What I have of God is not enough. I want more.
Then in verse 18, Moses says "show me thy glory." What was he saying? Manifest yourself to me? Show me who you really are
in all your glory? I know you but what I know is not enough and I want a full understanding of who you are? I want to see
you in all your glory, all your majesty! All your splendor! Oh, flesh could not stand in such a holy presence. I checked out
some of the other translations on these scriptures and most of them were faithful to scriptures but one or two, modernized
and made the conversation so casual it was hard to swallow. It's unimaginable that this meek man could stand in the presence
of the Lord and talk so boldly and casually as it was portrayed. I love the King James Version. It feeds my spirit. There
is a sense of reverence all through the KJV that is missing in many of the newer translations. What did Paul tell Timothy
about the Lord?
1Ti 6:16 Who only hath immortality, dwelling in the light which no man can approach
unto; whom no man hath seen, nor can see: to whom be honor and power everlasting. Amen.
So early the next morning, Moses gets up, prepares himself, gets the tablets of stone, and heads up to do as the Lord told
him. And the Lord descended in the cloud and stood with him there, and told him who he was-how he was patient, loving, merciful,
gracious and longsuffering God with abundant goodness and truth, and willing to forgive. Keep in mind Moses had to be wondering
how God was going to treat these people Israel, since they had sinned against him so badly with the golden calf. Moses had
interceded when God had said he was going to wipe them out and start over. But here, when he begins to hear and understand
who God really is, what does he do? This understanding is so completely different from human nature, from what Moses is and
is used to in people, it's so different, and so wonderful, he is overcome, and for the first time recorded in scripture, Moses
bows his head and worships the Lord. You know, that has been one thing that has inspired worship in me. When I am battling
things and feeling terrible because the closer you get to God, the brighter the light, the more it spotlights your own flaws.
The more of His beauty I see, and understand, by comparison, how inadequate and flawed I am, and when I see my wretchedness,
my complete helplessness to make myself like him, when He is so good, and I long to be like him instead of what I am, it's
a heavy weight. BUT as I realize he already knew my shortcomings, my wretchedness without him, and loved me anyway, and is
eager to help me anyway, oh folks, that understanding not only humbles but melts my heart and causes me to tremble inside,
and this love and hunger for God will well up from deep inside me and my eyes fill up with tears, and I couldn't speak if
my life depended on it over the lump in my throat. And worship breaks out in my soul. I have always thought something was
wrong with me, since I got saved. I've seen many who could rejoice and shout and praise the Lord during the songs sang in
church. And sometimes, I get blessed listening to my talented brothers and sisters sing the praises of the Lord. Sometimes
the anointing flows and I rejoice in the Lord as the songs come. But worship? Adoration? Soul-deep love for my Maker? What
has caused it to well up the most in this soul of mine is understanding, revelation to my heart of the truth of God's word,
in spite of me and my failures and flaws. It's what keeps me going on days when I feel bad, and am stressed out, and things
aren't going right. It's my hope. I've understood that he knew all this about me before he ever saved me. And he did it anyway.
One of my favorite scriptures, is he calls things that are not as though they are.
Rom 4:17 (As it is written, I have made thee a father of many nations,) before
him whom he believed, even God, who quickeneth the dead, and calleth those things which be not as though they were.
Now, if God can take an old man and an old woman who are well past the age of child bearing and renew their youth and give
them a child, a new life, to nurture and bring up, can he not put his own life in me and see it brought forth, overcoming
the flesh, the devil, and the world, and multiply that life so that others are brought to him, as well? For with God nothing
shall be impossible! (Luke 1:37) Do I have a reason to worship, besides the command to do so? YES!!!!!!!!!! And you know,
it occurred to me once that God gave ten commandments to a people he was so good to, and had rescued, and blessed so mightily,
and yet, he had to command them to love him. Is that not one of the commandments? "Love the Lord your God with all your heart,
soul and strength and mind?" Another verse I have embraced, is found in Deut 30.
Deu 30:6 And the LORD thy God will circumcise thine heart, and the heart of thy
seed, to love the LORD thy God with all thine heart, and with all thy soul, that thou mayest live.
It's not something in me naturally to do, or my children. But God will cut off the hardness of the heart, and plant in
it the truth that will set it free to love him. That will birth the love for him. Oh, thank you Lord. Thank you Lord. Holy
and Reverend is Your Beautiful Name!!!!
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